Exams~

Exams oh exams... why do u need to exist?
Your existence makes people nervous, scared, stress, etc.
All of them are negative thoughts..
No one wanted u to be here..
When the time of the semester arrives..
people either want u to go away asap .. or ..
want more time though they want u to leave..
u are the reason why people get depression..
it's because..
cause of u, learning isn't a fun thing anymore..
cause of u, people start to have high expectations..
it's not bad to have high expectations..
but learning use to be fun and expectations are easy to be met..
because there is no stress, people learn for the sake of learning..
but now..
people learn for the sake of EXAMS!!!!

I hate u ... I dun wanna see u again!!
*though i still have to until the end of next year*

Love,
Suzanne @ Shu Xian

Sigh

Well.. Fiona's been back to Melbourne for a week now.. I think? It felt longer .. Sigh.. Alright, after that all the assignments just suddenly fell on me .. I just found out a few days ago that i have a report due on the coming monday.. Great...... Started preparing .. Interviewing the psyhologist.. .. Surfing the net.... Gosh.. If i could start earlier (this question went through my mind).. Well, what's passed has pass.. And there is nothing i can do about it.. So... Still struggling.. After this have ICBM assignment.. Grrr... Dont even know hat is it all about .. So dead.. And finals is coming in a month.. X.X

Suzanne@Shu Xian

Gatherings~

Alright, Fiona's back since last week but we only manage to meet up during Derrick's farewell party coz she was busy for the few days since she was back.. Derrick's farewell was on Wednesday night, we went to Marmalade in Bangsar Village 2.. Quite nice, coz most of them were there, a few that i haven't seen for sooo long.. Joshua was also back from UK for his holidays..

After Marmalade, since it closes at 10pm, we headed to our second location, for desserts.. in alexis.. Here are the photos..

The two professional photographers.. Tony and Josh..

top: Kelvin, Zi Jing

below: Derrick, me and Mei Sern

Zi Jing, Derrick, Josh, me and Mei Sern

Kelvin gao gao zan ..

Samantha and Fiona's candid shot.. Aww... Fiona's so cute..

showing off their rings.. but ... zi jing's one can't see lah .. haha.. bosco is the 'ring-less' one..

A group photo from Fiona's cam.. *with josh in it*

Another group photo, from Josh's cam.. I actually like this effect better.. Looks so *i don't know how to describe it*, it just look really nice.. but it's without Josh.. >.<"

Oh well, that's all for that day .. There are more..

We had karaoke session on Friday afternoon, but it's only me, Chai Li, Zi Jing and Fiona..

And on Saturday, which was yesterday.. we had a belated-birthday celebration for Hor Yan ..

And today, we went badminton and dim sum in kota damansara ..

*photos will be coming up next if... i get the photos*

toodles for now ~ ^v^

back to tutorial work and assignments.. >.<

Love,

Suzanne @ Shu Xian =)

Bringing Out the Best in One's Personality

"In the multitude of personalities, we see the Buddhist principle of cherry, plum, peach and apricot blossoms at work. Just as each blossom is beautiful in its own way, each person is also endowed with their own special qualities. Being introverted doesn't make someone incapable, just being quick-tempered doesn't make a person useless. We should live in a way that is true to ourselves. The fundamental aim of Buddhism is to enable us to do that."

President Ikeda said:

Personality is something that greatly affects our lives. Someone once said it is determined by fate, and there's nothing we can do about it. The fact is, almost, everyone agonises over some aspect of their personality. Agonising actually leads to growth. But, you also have to realise that just worrying about your problems won't change anything. Although the human race has made incredible advances in science, in reality we still understand very little about ourselves, and the workings of the human kind.

People's personalities are truly diverse, In Buddhism, the word society (Jpn seken) also has the meaning of 'difference' or 'distinction'. In other words, society constitutes a gathering of people, each possessing unique and distinct personalities.

Once, when encouraging a member who had begun practising Nichiren Daishonin's Buddhism to change his angry nature, Soka Gakkai 2nd Josei Toda said, "You don't have to worry about changing your personality; all you have to do is chant daimoku and live your life the best you can. Then, very naturally, you will see the negative aspects of your personality disappear, leaving you with the positive ones. you must have a clear purpose and work for the betterment of society."

Source: Youth - A Time For Construction [Discussion Series] by Daisaku Ikeda (2001), Soka Gakkai Malaysia.

Confused??

hmm .. good mood? or not?

what am i thinking?

busy? or not?

ahhh ~ whatever... but i'm counting down the days~

=) Suzanne @ Shu Xian

It's funny... It's weird...

Gets to me all the time..

Walking ... Talking ... Playing ...

especially listening to Music ..

Makes me stop and wonder ..

about loadz of stuff..

about life.. about myself..

about people around me ..

friends, family, even a stranger..

how can people be so friendly for this moment ..

then so mean next ..

i know .. this is life ..

every different u meet ..

makes u learn something ..

but sometimes thinking of it hurts ..

can't show the emotions ..

so i find something to do ..

where i can release every single emotion ..

it's like expressing it in a different way ..

only people who understands will understand ..

but .. it's really funny that ..

even with all the people surrounding me ..

it still feels like im all alone ..

it's very hard to explain ..

cuz i don't know what is the problem ..

it just felt that way .. @.@

Suzanne @ Shu Xian

back to square one

人生啊人生，真的那么复杂吗？明明那么简单的东西，让您这么一搞，变得好复杂。好像大家的理由并不是理由，而您所谓的‘无理’才是有理。人生无论你做什么决定，都是要有计划的去过。不要因为小小的不高兴，没能力都想逃避世界给您的考验。虽然，现在出去不会马上活不下去，但长期呢？您的生活稳定下来了吗？收入稳定吗？之后得烦的大大小小的事情呢？其实您根本就没有想过。如果您到外面真的能生存下来的话，今天您根本不会在这里。外面的世事沧桑，但您却一成不变。在这儿的这段日子里，您到底学到了什么？您不但没有任何的改变，反而变本加厉。算了呗！

曾经听过一个人说过，不要要求别人改变，因为你改变不了别人。当你想让别人改变，你要先改变自己，让别人看见你的努力的让自己便得更好，那么‘那个人’也会跟着你改变。真的，没有人能改变你，除了您自己啊！别人怎么想要改变您，如果您听不进耳，都不成。

在此劝大家，做什么都好，千万记得，要先想后果，不要因为现在想要享受而让以后变得痛苦。所谓先苦后甜嘛，大家说对不对？现在的痛苦算什么？未来的享受才是重点。嘻嘻 =)

柿伭 笔